For five years you have INVESTED in a relationship that you hoped would lead to marriage. Has this relationship paid any dividends? NO, it has not.
You think you know how your boyfriend thinks, but the only thing you know is what you WISH he felt for you.
I'll bet money right now that your boyfriend is PLAYING you. Chances are EXCELLENT that Mr. Long-Distance has one or more close to home relationships; in fact, it is possible that he is married to someone else.
To him, you are a "worldly girl" -- a harlot or a slut who is not suitable as a marriage mate but sure makes for a nice toy from time to time.
Here's what you need to do to set Mr. Long-Distance on the "straight-and-narrow."
I HOPE you know where he lives. I hope you know what Kingdom Hall (that is what JWs call their churches) he goes to. If you don't know, you need to find out. Then go on line and find out when the SUNDAY public meeting is held at his Kingdom Hall.
DO NOT tell him you are collecting this information. You are going to surprise him. REALLY surprise him.
You are going to go to his Kingdom Hall and show up fashionably late for the meeting.
Then you are going to walk into the Kingdom Hall and tell the attendant who greets you, "I'm Mr. Long-Distance's GIRLFRIEND! I wanted to surprise him by joining with him at his house of worship -- we've known each other for FIVE YEARS -- ever since High School. I want to learn more about Jehovah and his righteous organization!"
He hasn't sent you gifts or flowers or Valentine's Day stuff for two reasons: 1) JWs believe that stuff is pagan and 2) you mean nothing to him.
Tell me I'm mean, tell me I'm insensitive; I've heard it before. I am also something else: I AM CORRECT.
You deserve a guy who respects you and is honest with you, and he IS NOT IT.
Tell us how things go, OK?